he needs me.

It's nice to feel needed, yes?  Life would be awfully boring and self-centered if we only every focused on ME! ME! ME!  Although there are days where that would be particularly nice.

I know that my boys need me to wash their clothes and drive them to and fro.  There has never been a question that I am needed in those ways.  The sweet whisperings of their emotional needs is what pulls and tugs at my heart.  Those bits I live for.  To know that I can be their gravity.  Their constant.  I love that about motherhood.

And so when Tyler told me he "reeeeeally" wanted me and the younger boys to join him at his Valentine party, I jumped at it (even though it is boring for Nicholas).  When Tyler stares me in the eyes (before hoping out of the car for school this morning) and asks if I could maybe come up for his lunch today, my heart said yes even though my to do list needed some tending. 

I know, perhaps, they won't always turn to me to fill those emotional needs.  But I will always be willing.  I will always be ready.